It is 1am and I would LOVE to be sleeping but I don't seem to be able to sleep most nights :( usually it's because I'm uncomfortable or have acid reflux or something but tonight I was perfectly comfortable but my mind started going crazy and I had to get back up and find a distraction so I wouldn't start crying or have a panic attack! As I get closer to my due date I am thinking more and more about the delivery and bringing her home etc.. and then it hit me tonight that all of our family is going to be coming up which is wonderful and I want them all here so that they can all be part of this wonderful time but the thought running through my head is.. where are we all going to fit?? My house is not big enough to host everyone and I'm afraid I am going to feel so overwhelmed with such a houseful right when I come home. My in-laws are planning to stay in a hotel since we only have one guest room now with the nursery but during the day everyone will be here and I'm sure it will be perfectly wonderful but for some reason I started feeling really anxious about it. I so wish we were still in our townhouse and had more space so everyone won't be so cramped! This is one of the hard parts of being military is living so far from family. When big life events happen such as having a baby everyone is going to come all at once! If we were in FL of course everyone would come to the hospital but then we would go home to our house and have visitors one at a time or one family at a time. Oh well! I'm sure it will all work out just fine. I'm just over thinking things as usual I'm sure.
I think I will eat a snack and try to go to sleep! A little facebook and blogging has calmed me down I think so hopefully I will be able to sleep now!
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